I’ll tell you what… being a mama is tough. It’s hard work. For sure. More than I realized haha. But it also comes with the most incredible moments I’ve ever experienced! Lately, Noah has been starting to really recognize when Mike or I are in the room, holding him, or looking at him. He actually smiles now when I come into view and he cries when I walk away. Ever since the first time Noah smiled in response to us, Mike and I do everything we can to get him to look our way and smile again. Goofy cooing noises, silly faces, high-pitched squeals, whatever it takes. I’d say we have about a 90% success rate of getting him to smile back haha! And every single time he does, we look at each other and melt into complete puddles. I can’t believe how much joy it brings me for him to interact with us! If I had it my way, I would make it so that he smiles and talks with us all day every day. It’s the best feeling ever.
The other day it dawned on me that that’s how God feels about us.
He’s our heavenly father. He’s always watching over us, taking care of us, and desperately trying to get our attention no matter if we respond or not. I can’t imagine how much joy He must feel when we actually do respond to him. When we happen to glance His way. Our five minutes with Him in the morning doesn’t satisfy Him, just like if Noah only looked at me once or twice throughout the day I’d be aching for more connection with him! He’s my baby, I want to give him everything, I want to get to know him and I want him to get to know me! I want to show him everything I know and I can’t wait to teach him about all the things in this world that will fill him with excitement and wonder! I just want to do life with him, and I want the absolute best for him.
Magnify that beyond comprehension and you have the heart of the Father.
This parallel has become a revelation in my walk with the Lord. I remember when I was little, my dad told me a little story about Jesus. It was more of a picture that stuck with me all these years. He said that every morning when you wake up, Jesus is sitting at the foot of your bed so excited to spend the day with you. He’s been waiting for you to get up and He can’t wait to walk and talk with you. Now imagine you go your entire day without acknowledging him at all, then the evening comes, you crawl back into bed, and he sits back down with his heart aching. And even though you didn’t spend any time with him at all, he will be there, at the foot of your bed, excited and hopeful all over again tomorrow.
I get that so much more now. It’s amazing how much love I have for my little son and how much I just want to pour into his life.
This morning I had a similar revelation which has led me to pull out my laptop while my little nugget is napping to share what I’m learning with you all. Yesterday I was at my wits end. For some unknown reason, Noah would not nap anywhere but in my arms all day. And not only that, but when he was awake he needed to be calmed and soothed and held almost all day. Now, don’t get me wrong, I LOVE snuggling that little baby… usually Mike has to remind me to put him down haha. But usually I get a few moments throughout the day to get things done while he naps and relaxes. By the end of the day yesterday, I felt like all I had done was try to soothe a crying baby, or hold a sleeping baby, and I couldn’t believe how much he had needed me.
It was just one of those days, but it got me thinking about his desperate need for mommy or daddy sometimes. When he wants us, nothing else will do. He will cry until he gets snuggled and he’s comforted by just being with us.
I started thinking about the phrase “Give me Jesus” and I realized how half-hearted I say that. “Give me Jesus” is more like “I’d like to spend time with Jesus but I’m ok if I don’t until tomorrow”. “Give me Jesus” is more like “I love spending time with him and he’s truly changing my life until the next part of my day comes along and distracts me again”. But what if I said give me Jesus the way Noah says give me mama? What if my need for him was so desperate nothing else would do? What if “give me Jesus” was an uncompromisable demand of my heart rather than a nice saying I write in my prayer journal once in awhile?
What if my heart demanded Jesus while he desperately wanted to interact with me? That seems like a perfect fit doesn’t it? I need Noah and he needs me. I need Jesus and He needs me.
How desperately do you need your Father, and how much time will you spend with him today? He just wants to walk and talk with you. He wants to show you everything he knows. He wants to pour his love onto you. He adores you, and you need him. It’s a pretty flawless design if you ask me.
I hope this reminded you how desperately loved you are and how special your relationship with God truly is. It’s not a routine, it’s not on your to-do list, it’s not a requirement, it’s a beautiful living, changing, growing, true relationship! Just say hi, get to know Him. Walk through life together. He’s probably doing all sorts of things to try and get your attention right now. Like nudging your heart to read this post. Look up at your daddy and smile, it will make his day I promise.
Thank you for reading, I hope you all have a great day!